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[31 May 2011|11:31pm] |
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before sec1, i filled up the form... indicating that i didnt want
before uni, i chose one extra program over the other
OMFG WHY WAS I SO STUPID WHY DID I COMMIT THE SAME MISTAKE TWICE IN MY LIFE
that goodness in my final year of undergrad education, final sem, i took the step towards the change. AND I FREAKING HELL ACED IT. I AINT GONNA STOP, U AINT GONNA KEEP ME IN. GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
A IS SO FREAKING FOR AWESOME
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[26 May 2011|02:29am] |
this is the education i missed out on
the spaces, the life, the independence, the culture, the spirit, the drive.
this is what it feels like to have much, but knowing one can never have all no matter how much one tries.
this is the door that has closed.
goodbye now. here's to 2 more years and the door that opens then.
i hope with all my heart it's light behind that door.
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[03 Apr 2011|04:58pm] |
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it's quite irritating. to turn and see someoneworking on something that looks exactly like what i'm workingon. plans. 3dmodel. it's highly irritating. fking save me from this world.
april 13th. come quick.
the day i quit sch a bit
4 years of educationand i finally realised how flawed this all is.
all we're trying
all we're fighting for.
it is so flawed.
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[25 Mar 2011|06:35pm] |
it's ending.
and everything will fall apart.
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[22 Mar 2011|09:54pm] |
the last 3 weeks, of my 4 years here.
such a screwed up mess of emotions none of us can really express
come mid-april everything changes.
4 years later, i feel smaller than ever.
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[07 Mar 2011|05:17am] |
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i hate my life
im sick
sick as shit
have nth for studio tmr
hence i will stay awake till i get smth
but i still dont have anything
means i wont get to slp
but that sucks
because there is still mtg tmr
and then write for contemp
and then i have to revise for french on tuesday
andlesson is at 8am means i wake up at 630am
omfg just kill me now
because i really cant solve my design with stupid parameters i stupidly set
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[05 Mar 2011|11:31pm] |
why do we work so hard
why do i still work when i'm sick
why do i tolerate others' crap
when can i go
where do i belong
why does it have to be this way.
everyday that passes
i'm more convinced that i'm better off hidden away in a cave
cause less shit for others
others cause less shit for me
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[31 Jan 2011|10:12am] |
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this has been a good year.
I have been spending less time on fb, twitter, lj.
but i've sadly also neglected tumblr.
i've tried to be more efficient
but i've sadly also stopped visiting many archi-sites
i've been finishing stuff i need to do on time
but i've sadly also not done the more that i can
i started the year practising much classical,
but after gz, i was ill and many things were abandoned because all i wanted to do was sleep.
i had an awesome time with 6b
i'm liking french
i hardly feel like an architecture student.
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[14 Jan 2011|09:42pm] |
some people
got no freaking sense of urgency
grow up man
not everything happens as slowly as you
things i'm glad i am:
i have ambition
i know my limits
i have a sense of responsibility
i also have a sense of urgency
i can make decisions.
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[04 Jan 2011|11:46pm] |
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didn't feel a thing.
mmm shld make a timeline of all these years...
best with jaychou playing in the background, haha.
jaychou should not have curly hair. he looks like cok with curly hair.
anyway i have always thought...
what will i ever say to him if i do get to meet him in person
haha. everything i think i might say would sound too lame.
but then again, all i want is just for him to play for ME and ME only haha
all that he plays. mmmm nice. but then that wld mean i would see him in person and i would speak to him
and that goes back to how i do not know what to say to him.
i must be crazy. think so much for what. not like i meeting him anytime soon. crazy.
but then again... possible.
most things are possible.
never thought i'd be off to europe so soon, but i did and i didd!!!
so.. hah. things are possible...
but i wldnt say nothing is impossible. stupid nike.
it's 2011! i haven't said that here, have i.
i'm still happy (generally), and excited.
last sem of sch. many reasons to be sad but its 2011 and i just want to be happy and i actually see my chance to be happy. so.. (:
then i'm actually done with school. and everything is my choice now. well, soon.
what i do, where i work. would i work. what do i do. what shall i do. where shall i go.
wow. i must say it's really pretty exciting.
i can continue my masters, i can not. it's all my choice.
going to uni isn't really a choice.
i mean.. i wld go anyway. it's just that..
that was 4 years ago. i was 18. or uh, 19?
this year, i turn 23 (on the 23rd HAHA nice....)
and i just think that the last 4 years.. have been pretty amazing (why does this sound like i'm already done with my 4 yrs haha)
but actually the most changes were from yr3 onwards.
i feel happy in 2011. not because i know exactly what i want in my future. in fact, it's been blurrer than ever.
i always said i wanted to study architecture.. that i was sure.
and hell yea i did. but now, almost at the end of architecture school..
i feel kinda excited of what's to come although i don't really know what's to come
and i think that's exciting.
because it means i could do anything.
anything in the world.
uh of course i need to earn $. but i'm confident even if i don't work a norm office job... i can do that.
i can start things. i can do things...
wow. i have plans.. and i have no plans at all, upon closer scrutiny.
actually.. in summary, i'm excited.
i could be happy.
and that's enough to sustain for now (:
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